August 1, 2009

I think I'm liking someone from my past.. I never considered him as a boyfriend from before since we were just 'trying it out'. We lasted a couple of weeks because I was too shy at first. I don't want to jump into conclusions. But I see him stare at me different now, like back when we both liked eachother. I'm starting to like him alot again, like I want a second chance with him. The more time I spend with him, the more I start liking him. Like when he asked for a hug out of nowhere. We were in line for tim hortons and all of a sudden he asked for a hug. I side hugged him and it just felt.. i don't know.. great.. XD. When he put his arm around me to go dance it was great.. Lol. I can't explain the feeling. but yeah.. he doesn't know who he likes yet.. well thats what he said. He also looks at me more often that usual. Gah. Whatever.. D; I just have a feeling that he might like me again.. i'll just wait..
Anyways. I went camping a couple of days ago. It was fun. I went with Ashley, Jennifer, Kevin, Ian, Louis, and Mark. We went to Grand Beach and we were so unprepared but it was fun still. I feel like we all connected more than before. I hope we all do this again next year. :] At least we will be more prepared that before. XD

I'm pissed. My dad buys all of these things for my brother but nothing for me! My brother turned 15 a week ago and my dad buys him a ps3. We already have a ps1, ps2, nitendo64, gamecube, xbox 360, and wii. So now we have like 7 game consoles. He could just buy me a car already. Okay, I turned 18 half a year ago. I just graduated highschool about two-ish months ago and yet he does nothing! He never even went to my graduation that I thought he would be at. Which makes me sad because he never has done anything to make me happy. My mom has been all the support. It feels like I don't even have a dad. My dad doesn't really care for us. All he cares about is games. I cried because my dad didn't even help out with anything that deals withpme. My mom has paid for all my birthdays, my 18th birthday, and my graduation present which is a camera, plus she's paying for my tuition for school. What does my dad do..? Nothing, he never supported me into doing stuff. The thing he buys me is Games. I don't need games. He buys me Sims games. I don't really care about games. I'm not my brother. I'm a girl! Why can't you buy me a car. It will make up all the things you haven't done with me. Am I your daughter. Treat me like one! Don't spoil me. But always be there for me when I need a helping hand. When I need a shoulder to cry on. When I need a adult to vent on. I need to laugh with you. I don't remember the happiest moment I had with you.. Which makes me sad.. During my 18th birthday, it felt like you didn't want to be there. You didn't even help mom with the funds! D; I really wish you could be more like a dad.. To me, I feel like your just a aquaintence in my life. You're not even close to a friend. But more than a stranger. I don't know what will happen in the future. I just wish you would be a better dad...

June 24, 2009

Its almost 12:00 AM..
Right now...
I was looking at some pictures... I kind of miss him... When I look at the pictures of him and I, we seem to be always matching.. either we were wearing a solid color, looked similar, or stripped. Why do I miss him alot.. I know we are already done. We can't go back. I'm scared to go back. I don't know how to deal with his family if they will accept me anymore...
I just know that I miss him alot..
I miss the hugs.
I miss the kisses.
I miss his love.

I don't know why I'm saying this all of a sudden. But I just do. I miss his smile towards me...
Gah! Oh well...

June 13, 2009

Hi,
this thing i'm doing. I feel like most of the people there are against me. The people who are above my status there that recruited me. They don't like me. I don't know what to do. I just rather be there with my friends. I feel not wanted in there anymore, it makes me feel depressed. I like alot of people there.. They have been soo kind in the beginning.
My upline i guess you can call it says if i'm not going to do enough effort I should just quit.
I really want to do this and I know i'm making excuses. But I do have school. Its my last year.. I'm like studying like crazy.. Before I didn't have alot of homework and i didn't have to study yet for exams but now I do.. I'm sorry, I know sorry isn't good enough. But I do want to do this. Its really fun.. but i guess its only fun if you have your friends there.. Of course I met people here and they are friendly, kind, generous.. I just need some of my friends here cause I feel soo alone there.. It doesn't feel right because I can feel the tension every time i'm in there. I feel like I just want to get out of there as soon as possible..
I really want to quit because of some of the people there.. they are supportive but they aren't that patient..
I will try to do my best there.. when I get out of highschool. Just watch me. I'll be more committed.

Other than that. I'm trying to find a job which is really stressing me out because I have to owe people back. Some people said that i can owe them back anytime.. but there are some where they say owe me back already. i need the money. I don't have a damn job yet. just wait. I applied online mostly everywhere where i can probably stay for a long time. It only has been almost a week since i applied.. I'm going to keep applying till someone calls me. I need this so badly..

April 20, 2009

Wednesday, April 15, 2009 - April 20, 2009
I went to Edmonton. We left Winnipeg at 4:30 am and arrived to Edmonton somewhere around 9:00 PM. We stayed in Greenwood Inn. We went swimming on the first day and the last day. We also went to Edmonton Mall and I started developing feelings for this guy that starts with a 'C'. Actually my feelings started when I went swimming on the first day in Edmonton. So anyways... we also ate chinese food :]
We went to West Edmonton Mall on the second day which was thursday. Oh my gosh, it was also my first biggest roller coaster ride with loops and slanted turns. It was like crazy! I just shut my eyes for the whole entire time when we started to move down.. D;
Then the next ride we went on was a dizzy ride.. Mahn.. I felt the sushi coming up... D; I didn't feel soo good so we just went around West Edmonton Mall and bought Mcfurry because we got it for free when we bought the tickets. It was good :]. I never had it in sooo long :] Anyways...
Robinna and I went to shop for our red tshirt and i had to buy a black skirt. Then we bought flipflops because our feet hurted...
on friday we went to the convention. It was a great experience, I saw Xuan Nguyen the guy who wrote the system builder. Okay, other than that we went back to the hotel and we just chilled there. x] oh yeah.. on the way we almost got into a car crash.. but we made it there when they were going inside.. We got there soo fast XD oh yeah.. during the night i past out..

Edit this later.. because going to school for a couple of hours just to see everyone :]

April 02, 2009

Hi, its Joyce.
I haven't been on for quite a while, its because I'm busy with Grad committee and other responsibilities. Anyways, I need a job. I don't think I'm working in Orange Julius anymore, its just not going to work out anymore D;
These past couple of days I've been hanging out with Robinna. One of my ex's brother's girlfriend. She is just so awesome to be around and we've created new memories to share. There was this one time where we had to stop in the middle of the street. The island was small and a truck was coming by. We were so scared. But it was funny at the same time. XD Robinna almost got splashed by a car two days ago. xD. It was funny, we were like screaming. =] I have also met his relatives and cousins. They actually remembered me. I was soo happy! It was fun knowing them. They even hate his new gf. They say she is soo rude, she's always on the phone when she comes.
What really made me smile was his little sister. She remembered how I look like. It was awesome. It was like I never left. Even his mom, she loves me. She definitely missed me. =]
Alot of things have been happening, but I'm glad that I get to spend time with them.

Well today, i'm going to be sleepingover for two nights at my best friends place. then off to pj's birthday, and then movies with robinna and randy and randy's friends. =]
This weekend should be the best, without any worries what so ever.! =]
Well I'm off to get ready. Bye ;D

Joyzipie.<3

March 11, 2009

Okay, well its not really march 11, it past but today is just an ordinary day. I just gotta do my project. bye ;D

March 10, 2009

Hey loves,
Wow, my cousin has facebook! My sister was saying she's such a poser. She looks pretty to me. My sister is even a poser too. Haha. Today I had work, I was actually happy I am working. I'll be getting my paycheck this week. Yes! At least I have money for movies, maybe bowling too. I was the first one to say happy birthday to dylan. I'm so proud of my self. Hehe. Omg. My ex snobbed me off, I was going to say hi but he rushed past me. Wow. It hurted though, I started to cry. But I quickly recovered. Cause I'm good like that! Hahaha.
Not much happened, I saw my friend Pauline, and then I saw like him and some of my friends, well his too.
Nothing much happened so I'll leave it to this. Bye ;D