August 1, 2009

I think I'm liking someone from my past.. I never considered him as a boyfriend from before since we were just 'trying it out'. We lasted a couple of weeks because I was too shy at first. I don't want to jump into conclusions. But I see him stare at me different now, like back when we both liked eachother. I'm starting to like him alot again, like I want a second chance with him. The more time I spend with him, the more I start liking him. Like when he asked for a hug out of nowhere. We were in line for tim hortons and all of a sudden he asked for a hug. I side hugged him and it just felt.. i don't know.. great.. XD. When he put his arm around me to go dance it was great.. Lol. I can't explain the feeling. but yeah.. he doesn't know who he likes yet.. well thats what he said. He also looks at me more often that usual. Gah. Whatever.. D; I just have a feeling that he might like me again.. i'll just wait..
Anyways. I went camping a couple of days ago. It was fun. I went with Ashley, Jennifer, Kevin, Ian, Louis, and Mark. We went to Grand Beach and we were so unprepared but it was fun still. I feel like we all connected more than before. I hope we all do this again next year. :] At least we will be more prepared that before. XD

I'm pissed. My dad buys all of these things for my brother but nothing for me! My brother turned 15 a week ago and my dad buys him a ps3. We already have a ps1, ps2, nitendo64, gamecube, xbox 360, and wii. So now we have like 7 game consoles. He could just buy me a car already. Okay, I turned 18 half a year ago. I just graduated highschool about two-ish months ago and yet he does nothing! He never even went to my graduation that I thought he would be at. Which makes me sad because he never has done anything to make me happy. My mom has been all the support. It feels like I don't even have a dad. My dad doesn't really care for us. All he cares about is games. I cried because my dad didn't even help out with anything that deals withpme. My mom has paid for all my birthdays, my 18th birthday, and my graduation present which is a camera, plus she's paying for my tuition for school. What does my dad do..? Nothing, he never supported me into doing stuff. The thing he buys me is Games. I don't need games. He buys me Sims games. I don't really care about games. I'm not my brother. I'm a girl! Why can't you buy me a car. It will make up all the things you haven't done with me. Am I your daughter. Treat me like one! Don't spoil me. But always be there for me when I need a helping hand. When I need a shoulder to cry on. When I need a adult to vent on. I need to laugh with you. I don't remember the happiest moment I had with you.. Which makes me sad.. During my 18th birthday, it felt like you didn't want to be there. You didn't even help mom with the funds! D; I really wish you could be more like a dad.. To me, I feel like your just a aquaintence in my life. You're not even close to a friend. But more than a stranger. I don't know what will happen in the future. I just wish you would be a better dad...